Hey guys, I'm really sorry for the radio silence with regards to this blog.
Unfortunately I am one of the many people who live with mental illness and I have been pretty freaking depressed for quite a few months now.
I know I have good reasons to feel down- my mum's pointless and drawn out death, being the only one with her when she passed away (and it was not peaceful in any way, shape or form), the 3 major surgeries that have left me scarred and with pain and mobility issues, losing my little house painting business as I can no longer climb ladders etc, trying to get back into school and being unable to afford it and having my beautiful Big Cat getting hit by a car and dying shortly after my mum did... there's been a LOT of awful events since 2012 and I think it's really taken a toll.
So, unfortunately, I have been incredibly apathetic and completely unmotivated. Hence no blog entries.
But I am still around and I do care about this blog, so I am going to try really hard to start blogging again, even if I do so simply to break up the monotony of my day, which currently consists of dragging myself out of bed 10 minutes before I need to get my daughter to school, returning home and lying on the couch watching Buffy reruns and then picking up my kid from school, lying down again, maybe getting it together enough to cook dinner and off to bed at 8.30 to sleep 12 hours.
Fun right?
I feel like I am trying to move through some thick, viscous syrup whenever I walk, I can hardly talk let alone keep up a conversation and I only leave the house on school runs and to buy food.
NEGL, it's pretty bad. My GP is concerned, my family is concerned, hell, even I'm concerned. This is not living, it's simply existing and it's pretty damn bleak.
So yeah, maybe making myself write about polish and show off my swatches will be a way of giving my days a little more structure while I try to get better.
And I am grateful to any of you who still read this blog and I'm sorry for not taking care of it like I should.
I hope all of you are faring much better than I am and I promise to blog in the very near future... I have so many amazing polishes to share and I'm even getting into stamping and getting much better.
Anyway, until next time ~love and polish for all~
Em xox
