Monday, 9 June 2014

Another super-cute polkadot manicure, and a small detour to talk about that old foe of mine, depression

I've always thought dotty (dotti?) mani's were cute, but I also felt like I was too old to really wear them as most of the ones I saw were very light and bright, and I don't really do "light".
But I decided to have a play around with my dotting tools, as I didn't want the entire $2.00 I spent on them to be a total waste, and I thought maybe I could make them work for me.
And I did- the trick was simply toning down the pastel, girly vibe and dialing up the darker, more winter based tones I tend to gravitate towards.
My last mani featured a black based version with quite bright, vibrant colours (which I think looked freaking awesome, in my oh-so humble opinion), whereas this time around I wanted to try a really muted version and I love how it's turned out;

This is just a simple combination of a medium grey base and black, white and mauve dots, but I think it's really effective and the colours balance out against each other really nicely.


I changed how I approached the actual dotting part this time around and only placed one colour on my "palette" (read; plastic lid) at a time so the polish didn't dry out as I moved along.
It was definitely a lot easier dotting all my nails with one colour before moving onto the next and I also got a nicer arrangement on the nail by focusing on one colour at a time.

I seriously love how this looks and can't believe I was so leery of trying polkadots on my own nails, all because I thought I would look a little too "mutton dressed up as lamb".
Which is really pretty ridiculous when you consider just how much glitter I am prepared to wear on each nail, and the fact that I still run around wearing converse hi-tops and t-shirts and that I have tattoos and wear too many earrings and basically act like I'm 16 most of the time (much to my 10 year old daughter's embarrassment... but she needs something to tell the therapist when she's older, right?).
Maybe I just thought the colours I usually see used with these type of mani's were just a little too "soft" for me, but I am definitely trying to step out of my comfort zone and try new things, and I am really glad I did.

Anyway, as always I hope you are all well (the theoretical "you" as I don't think anyone ever reads this, but hey, why not, right?) and that life is moving along nicely.
I'll be honest, I'm struggling a little bit.
I feel like the ol' Black Dog is hounding me again, and that's a little scary as I've managed to avoid a major depressive episode for a couple of years and I had hoped that maybe, just maybe, I had finally found a medication that had finally put an end to all that bullshit.
Who knows, it could just be emotional exhaustion, which is certainly understandable after all that I have been through over the last couple of years. I don't know, but I hope that this isn't the beginning of another decent down the rabbit hole of depression... I am so tired, the thought of trying to get through another episode in my current state is more than a little daunting.

Thank god for this blog, and, as silly as it sounds, for the nail polish scene. Who knew that focusing on nail polish could give me such an effective method for distracting myself and giving myself something to look forward to.
And what a wonderful way this has been to connect with so many lovely, kind-hearted people too... it's a silver lining that was quite unexpected but very much appreciated.

Em xox


  1. This is really pretty! Great color combination too. I do hope you are not heading towards an episode of depression. If you are, please seek help so you can get through it. My father suffered from depression and I experienced that during cancer treatment so I know how debilitating it can be. I hope the joy and beauty of nail polish can help you!

    1. Thank you, Cyndi. I'm sorry your dad struggled with depression and that you experienced it yourself- I lost my mum to treatable cancer last year- it was tough as she didn't have the chemo etc and instead tried all alternative stuff... very hard to watch someone make that decision. Cancer is a very scary thing to face, so hugs to you and I hope all is well for you now.
      I honestly would never have believed how much joy a little bottle of polish could bring until I experienced it myself, it's kinda amazing really :) And it's *such* a supportive community, which definitely helps.
      Anyway, thank you so much for your kind words
      Em xox

  2. The colours you chose work perfectly together! Definitely not mutton dressed as lamb! (besides, I figure age is just a number - when I hit 45 my 'little' sister told me I really should now only wear skirts below the knees - meh whatever!). I'm sorry to hear that you are suffering, but hopefully your new meds are helping, and that it is more to do with tiredness. Stay strong and glitter everything!

    1. Thanks Katherine :) Yeah, the "no skirts above the legs" rule...smh. Wear what you like, how you like.
      And thanks for the words of support <3

  3. Love this mani, I can never get my dots round. They always look like miniature eggs, so well done you. Sorry to hear you are down at the moment, I know the struggle only too well. I have suffered depression for many years and unfortunately I have passed it on to my daughters. Take care of yourself, you have been through a lot over the last few years.

    1. Thanks Therese- I've found that really loading up the dotting tool and then using a very light touch is how I'm able to get more dots and less... everything else haha (not even eggs- just mess).
      And ain't depression a PITA? I worry about my daughter also as it's right through both sides of my family and also through her dad's (after all, he took his own life and I know his dad also tried taking his when he was younger).
      I can only keep an eye out for any of the warning signs but so far so good, she seems almost ridiculously normal and well adjusted, thankfully <3

  4. Polka dots rule and you can NEVER be too old for dots :). I battle with the black dog and also haven't had an episode in a loong time, not going quite so well this week but as you know there's a reason behind it. I'm here (well on facebook or private message) if you ever need to chat.

    1. Theresa, you are an absolute sweetheart and I'm sending you all the positive "cyber-hugs" in the world. I know you're going through a very trying time and I hope you have good people around you to help you and yours through this difficult time <3
      And thank you so much for your kind words, and the same offer applies to you, I'm around so pm me etc anytime you need to talk <3


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